Today on this retro friday you all should

take a drive during the evening hours around 7pm when the sun is setting, go on a street where there isn't much traffic. Blast this song and if your in just the right mood and your headed to just the right place(burger king,kmart, the mall, jo ann's fabrics) it will sound amazing and incredibly nostalgic. You could almost swear it was 1995 especially if you have an older car and if you drink some crystal pepsi and go with the 90's clothes. But just the song and the drive is enough to take you back, something about the rhythm makes you feel 90's and that is why I like this song so much even if you don't have any memories with it

I am on the adult autism spectrum

Well I known since last year as my previous boss/owner of the company I worked at, gave me a through evaluation and determined I was on the highly functioning spectrum(it's not black and white and you don't just get told you have autism) and in case your wondering, she was a highly respected individual that does a lot of speeches/work with autism so I trusted her word. No this doesn't make me off as many presume about autism. It just means I think differently from others, it doesn't mean I'm handicapped or slow as many think about autism

Anyways the lack of eye contact is the giveaway about me as I simply can not make eye contact with someone unless I'm forced to. I have trouble with relationships including romance and I have trouble with making and keeping friends so I have a very small amount of friends. I have a lot of anxiety and I don't sleep very much. I sleep really late and wake up pretty early. I have to do things a certain way such as always sitting in the same spot in the break room and I always have to be on the left when I walk with someone, I always say no worries, I wash my hands frequently and I'm always washing my hands before I use my phone and before and after I eat food. I touch glass before I open a door. I am obsessed with the 90's. I have trouble conversing with others and I have a really good memory

Anyways hopefully this doesn't make people think less of me as I am not that different from you or others, I just process things differently

My bday went pretty well this year

Usually on my bday I get stood up by my friends and I end up alone and wanting to cry because it's my party and I'll cry if I want to. This year I spent it working and me and my co workers threw me a bday party. There was cake,pizza,soda,candy and people were crying( not me) and presents and hugs being given out. Anyways I got a mmpr mug and skittles and a phone charm koala, some majorette cars, hot wheels star wars x wing and y wing, cookies, a batman cup, a funko joker pop and a selena shirt. I also had a co worker make me cup cakes and she usually doesn't bake cup cakes so it was nice. I like how I have presence and lots of people showed up and were genuinely happy. It's a nice break from the mopping around I would usually do, oh and my mom took me to panera bread in the morning before work and then to kohl's and I got a back to the future 1 shirt. Then she busted out a porto's red velvet cake and gave me a card and we sang happy birthday

This is a far cry from being alone and wondering where my life went

I don't want a relationship again ever or to get married

My last relationship ended on december 3rd 2005 and I have been single ever since then. In 2006 I came close to have a gf(s) but I didn't and so I continued being single and the same thing happened in 2007 but by then I knew I would want to stay single the rest of my short life. The closest I would again to having a gf was in 2011 and maybe last year also because my best guy friend said that my so called best friend had a thing for me as she would usually flake out to avoid spending time with me so idk if he's right and I will ask her next time. I have had chances over the years to have a gf(as I pointed out) but I friendzoned some of those girls and instead ended up becoming really good friends(said girl from last year and another one also). I don't have a tindr or whatever kool dating app people use nowadays nor do I have an account on plenty of fish or match.com so I don't try to even get a gf. I mostly keep to myself and live in my own world. I can go days or weeks without texting or calling a person so I have lost friends that way and it also keeps people from getting too close and/or interested in me and ruins friendships

The main reason why I don't want a relationship is that break ups hurt a lot and I don't want to experience it again so I am running away from that and so far it's been 11+ years of said running. Also the last time I got dumped I ended up going to a friend's house who hugged me and I don't have any friends that would do that for me this time around(I have less friends now) over the years I have been extremely attention needy so that would ruin any type of relationship plus I wouldn't have much time for a relationship or to spend time together. I would be over analyzing every thing and complaining about the lack of communication which is ironic coming from me. Being single avoids all that drama and heart break and so far I been doing a good job of staying single

My sister's first day of kindergarden was yesterday

and it was a touching emotional moment. Despite the fact that she is my sister, I treat her like a daughter almost, as we have a 20+ year age difference. I was there at the hospital when she was born and I remember that day very clearly and I was there when she got to go home from said hospital. I was the one that took care of her while my mom had post partem depression and I had to keep things sane and calm. My sister has built a bond with me over the years and now she's growing up before my eyes and camera lens. She went to the same elementary school that I did a long time ago, she is also in the same room(that was coincidence) that I was in all those years ago. It was a unseasonably cool and cloudy morning and I was listening to 1979 by the smashing pumpkins to set the mood as it felt weirdly nostalgic yesterday

Maybe because the more things change the more they stay the same, I got weird deja vu walking around my old school and seeing how different I view the world now compared to as a child. Life is something we all take for granted, all the sights and sounds and experiences and memories, they stay with us throughout our lifetimes but we look back with fondness. Make the most of it

My work is going to have a 90's day

Mostly because I suggested it on a discussion for upcoming theme days. I'll go all out and wear a gangsta bugs bunny shirt from 1997 or 1994 and zubaz and a fanny pack and my from 1994 hats and a beeper and some pogs. I just need the hornets starter jacket and some fila or LA gear shoes and I'll be a time traveler. There's also a superhero day and I'll wear a tmnt shirt and power rangers shirt on both days of the event and yes I consider them super heroes. Anyways I have made good friends with some of my co workers and I have their backs. I been working on getting rid of the scratches of the hood of my lexus(I use paste wax, high number grit sandpaper, water and scratch remover) and I been selling some things on hws. Oh also my bday is in exactly 9 days(the 20th) and looking back at it, things are a lot better especially compared to last year and and way better compared to 2015. I'm in a good position in life right now and I'm saving up for another lexus and to return to school and a better newer dslr and improve my photography and life skills

I am really looking forward to the super nintendo classic

First yes that's what I'm calling it as there already was a super nintendo mini(the 2nd version of the snes) released in late 90's as the n64 was in it's prime. Anyways the snes classic is a tiny version of the super nintendo(the lite version if you will) with games digitally installed on it so you don't need to purchase cartridges and you also avoid a dead battery. It's the best part of technology mixed with my childhood in a small convenient package

I used to own a super nintendo from 1995 to 1997 then again from 2002 to 2010(sold it to buy a wii) so I'm no stranger to one as it is one of my favorite systems(among with the 3ds) so of course I marked out big time when the snes classic was announced. I really hope to get one as supplies will be limited and of course scalpers will be out in full force with their hoarding techniques even though they don't sell any of their products because it's extremely over priced. The snes classic has some of my favorite games such as super mario world and super mario kart and donkey kong country(used to own them) and kirby's superstar and yoishi's island and super mario rpg(owned the last 2) among with star fox and sf 2 turbo. I will have lots of hours of joy especially on retro fridays and saturdays and show my sister what I grew up with. It would be somewhat of a passing of a torch moment

I do wish there was more games such as the other 2 donkey kong country games, the final fight games. more street fighter games, killer instinct, tmnt turtles in time, rival turf, the mortal kombat games, nba jam and zombies ate my neighbors but I am happy with the list and I just hope to get one

I have beaten a link between worlds and moved onto star fox 64 3D

A link between worlds was pretty easy but enjoyable and not too tough, you don't need a strategy guide especially if your an experienced zelda player. The last boss can be hard but he's fair and it took me 2 tries to beat him. The game might seem short compared to majora's mask or ocarina of time but it's well worth the money

I moved onto star fox 64 3D which is a remake in 3D of the nintendo 64 classic and also which I have never played or owned. So far i was playing it on normal mode and at times I find it pretty hard but firm and short. I'm already at the last stage and I only played it a handful of times but it's been a good ride so far. The landmaster and the last stage are the hardest ones that I have been cursing to this point but I'll probably finish this game today or tomorrow then I will start paper mario star sticker or mario and luigi paper jam or maybe donkey kong country returns 3D or I'm not sure what other game to play, I'll have to check my 3DS as I have a lot of games on it 

I'm going to take a break from posting the retro fridays and saturdays

well at least for a week, I was reading marcia clark's book(yes that marcia) and she got burn out by the trial and overwhelmed and needed a break at times. Well I don't have that huge pressure that she has but I have covered a lot of material in my retro fridays/saturdays/flashback friday/slowdown saturday posts and I been extremely busy lately and haven't been on my laptop lately(mostly weather related) plus I have major writers block and I use my laptop the most to post these as it's more frustrating on a tablet. I will continue to dress 90's related and blast 90's music when I drive/go out on fridays and saturdays but for the writing I will take a break from it

Buutttt I will post more random pictures of 90's things on fridays and saturdays to help my writers block. I won't abandon this blog(I had it since 2014) anytime soon