Wednesday, December 30, 2015

I thought I post about my mom

I touched based on my mom on previous posts but I figured I go into full detail because I am in the mood. I have mentioned this but my mom is a cross between benny from the george lopez show, louis from malcom in the middle, mrs skinner from the simpsons and....well that's all I could think for now.

In case your wondering why I am posting about my mom, well I hope others have had similar upbringings and I could relate somewhat with them and and vice versa and also to give an idea into my upbringing and current situation.

I'll start off with my childhood, ever since I could remember I was expected to know both english and spanish which is tough as a 5 or 6 year old. I was also expected to be a perfect translator ever since I was 6 for someone that has no patience and wants things to go there way.

I was expected to obey every command and even that would get me in trouble. I would get locked in a dark bathroom for hours with nothing(no food or drink) simply because I didn't know what the word outstanding meant in spanish(I still don't) even today my mom wants to control everyones(I'm not exaggerating either) lives such as mine, her sisters, her fathers, her aunts, random people on the street.

My mom doesn't use logic and just makes things up then believes them to be true. It goes against me because I am rude for providing proof I wasn't wrong such as the cassettes from last month. That is very rude behavior but my mom says I'm rude and don't act my age because she made up some lie about me and wants to spread it to others.

My mom is extremely negative and never see's anything good in anything, she always looks for the worst in everything especially me. Everything I do is never good enough, I mop the floor and do laundry and she'll complain it's not done right even though it is. If I cook(I do know how) then my mom will automatically say I'm an idiot and don't know how.

I'm expected to be a translator for her but she wants the words right as their saying them and gets mad when I don't do it instantly. If I listen to the person then my mom will get mad and just start saying "why aren't you translating" and I am rude if I say "I'm trying to listen" then my mom just storms off and says I'm good for nothing

She'll be nice to everyone else except for me, things that will get her really mad at me will be ok if they are done by other people. For example, recently her aunt and uncle visited and they are senior citizens. They can't aim when they go to the bathroom and always made a mess when they did. She blamed me and didn't say anything even though they admitted to doing it.

Oh yeah she doesn't believe anything I say unless it benefits her, she'll believe the news, random people,what she made up, but not me for no real reason. She'll make things up about me to get mad about such as the food I'm about to eat not being cooked the way she likes it(I'm eating it).

If I wash a dish then it will be wrong simply because I am washing it(I do know how to do them) but if I don't wash them then I am called lazy and good for nothing so no matter what, I get yelled at. It's a big stress to eat frequently since I have to gain weight.

She talks bad about everything and everyone especially her family but this is all done behind their backs. In their faces, my mom acts nice and she also doesn't want anyone talking about her even though it's ok when she does it.

She has no patience (1 min is a lot to her) so I have to do things in a rush but I get yelled for doing things fast and also for doing them slow. She'll make up stories about me to her family to get them to not like me and when things happen, she'll change the story so she'll be the victim

I firmly believe that my mom hates me as everything is my fault such as me not getting a job. She is also extremely rude to others and blames me for the problem. I rarely talk to my mom because my words get twisted around in a manner that ends up with me being called immature and rude.

A good example is my mom and her iphone, my brother gave it to her and I suggested 5 times in 4 months that she should learn how to dial 911 and carry it with her even though it's not activated because she could still call 911 in an emergency. She said I was rude and don't act my age.

There are lots more stuff I could post but I feel this entry is already long enough, so to sum things up, I was(still am) expected to be a fast translator for someone that is rude,impatient,doesn't admit when she is wrong, doesn't believe anything I say, blames me for everything, makes things up to yell at me for,  talks bad about me and others, extremely negative and quick to get mad.

I think you get the idea, this is why I so badly want a job so I could live on my own or with friends but I can't get one no matter what I try or where I apply

Midnight club 3 and LA have the most unique difficulty ever

By which I mean midnight club 3 remix and midnight club LA remix since I haven't played the normal unmixed versions. The game start off easy enough to get your guard down but if you keep winning it gradually gets harder in a passive agressive "haha" type of way.

How? the cpu drives perfectly and never crashes, their car or truck is always much faster then yours even if you have the same model. They bend the space time continuum and have nano second reflexes when side traffic goes by. Oh speaking of traffic, it always shows up at intersections when your passing through.

It will also use cars that are a class above yours(that have yet to be unlocked) to make you feel like a tortoise. As a last resort there will be much more cops with road blocks that your rivals will somehow teleport through as if they were the invisible man.

Both games are good but if not for the cheapish AI they would be perfect. The solution to this maddening difficulty is to take a break and not play for a few days. Suddenly that one race that is giving you so much problems will magically be easier

I been having dreams about getting bit by a rattlesnake(no pictures in the post)

It's a recurring theme in my dreams where I am somewhere and a rattlesnake bites me. The most recent one was last night/early this morning, I was wrangling a rattlesnake I had my foot behind it's neck(I was wearing shoes) when it suddenly turned around and struck, biting me.

It didn't hurt and I woke up shortly after. I been looking at various websites about what it means and have come up with different meanings.
1. It's a wake up call (I don't need one, I already know I'm a failure in life)
2. aging  (most likely this)
3. situtation or actvitity or behavior in life that is "poisonous"(probably the toxic environment my mom has created with her negativity or how I have isolated myself from fb and most of my friends except for 3 of them and that I hate my life)
4. Ignoring obvious warning signs(The only obvious warning sign is my unhealthy diet)
5. feeling threatened by something(I am threatened by my mom)
6. Something is getting in your way and it is keeping you from being able to pursue your goals to the fullest(again also my mom, she didn't want me to work fast food when I turned 18 and I had a job offer back then, she also doesn't want me working at a gas station when I also had an offer then blamed me because I can't get a job. I could have had a job already if not for my mom and suppose I worked at carl's jr when I was 18.)

(I'll continue this, I would have moved onto bigger things and would have done photography gigs and would have saved enough $ to get a mustang so I could apply at locations in downtown la or hollywood with no problems. My life would have been a lot better if only my mom didn't get mad at me for having an interview at carl's jr when I was 18. Even now, I don't use the computer to do a lot of picture editing because my mom says I'm on fb a lot even though I don't use it all. Then there is the fact that my mom doesn't encourage me in any positive manner at all and instead does the opposite)

I should also mention it's been a snake in the dreams that is always the same color and a similar size. Something in the 7 to 10 feet range. I am not afraid of snakes(I respect them though) and have touched them so it's not a fear of them that's giving me "nightmares". It's a darker color rattlesnake similar to a boa constrictor but with a rattle

Monday, December 28, 2015

Finally a new post

Well things have been pretty much the same in my life. I do have some things to talk about minecraft pe. I was at level 15 and pretty cocky at night. So I fought a skeleton with my sword but it was an ambush. I got attacked by a kreeper and a spider. I died and I couldn't find my way to my house I built so I started a new game.

This one is a lot better, I spawned in a forest with lots of trees therefore I was quickly able to build a big wood house and a wood bridge. My next goal is to mine a mountain close to my base for cobblestone and hopefully coal. If I don't find coal I'll craft a furnance then use that to make coal. I'll need all this coal for torches.

I am going to slowly explore more and more of this world and light would help me as it is really dark outside at night

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Yesterday I went to the vineland swapmeet

I didn't stay for long and I didn't get much since a lot of the sellers raised their prices to take advantage of christmas shoppers. For example one man wanted $12 for a opened minecraft steve with horse toy. That is more then what it costs at target or walmart and it was opened :o

Anyways I got mlb the show:2008 for psp for $1 and it works great

various gums and a bigger bag of darkside skittles for 25 cents each

 I got these loose hot wheels for 50 cents each

marvel vs capcom 2 for xbox for $2
 I also got 3 carded hot wheels from the early 90's for $1 each


Wednesday, December 23, 2015

My minecraft town part 4

Ok It took me awhile to post this since I got distracted with building a working roller coaster then I started survival mode. I am going to later on, post my upstairs and downstairs and yes I should have worded that differently

This is the main floor of my mansion, here is the view you get when you walk in and there is a glass floor on the 2nd floor.


To the left is my room(pardon the missing blocks I haven't cleaned up)


To the right is my bathroom and shower with a window that is placed in a location I didn't realize till now. Any pervert can see through into the shower or toilet


Below my right staircase is a chicken in water


Then there's a dinning room that's attached to my library(the chairs and tables got messed up in the switch from 0.12 to 0.13) which I use to relax and read a book once in awhile



To the left is my kitchen with a backdoor that leads outside

Here is my indoor spa and the alcove leads to the mountain where the huge waterfall is outside(yes it also leads you to an exit)

My room has a secret entrance/exit
The view outside my room(you can see my ranch house and rollarcoaster)


The stairs to my basement
 More views of my fountain and it drains into my basement


I finally escaped the island in minecraft pe survival mode

When I started a new game I was dumped on a island in a similar manner to lost. That's probably the best comparison because it was exactly like the tv show LOST, ok not really since there were no creepers or mobs on LOST. I built my house on a island that was flanked by 4 islands close by

One night I got tired of being on a deserted island so I did what no sane person would do. I saved up some meat from pigs then swam north. I was expecting to sink like a stone but my swimming skills were phelps like. I regretted not waiting it out as I could have crafted a boat but that would have been impossible without wood.

Just past the horizon was an island of snow, luckily mobs don't like the cold much so I was alone as I explored. There was no trees or usable material so I continued my trek north.

One of my worst fears kinda came true, I was alone swimming in the deep water when I see jelly fish to my left and to my right. These weren't small nemo sized fish either, but whoppers big enough to tell tales about for future generations

Thankfully I reached land quickly and the trees were a sight for sore eyes. I went right to work on punching trees and hunting for meat. I was able to craft wood blocks and a crafting table. Since my journey took so long it was getting dark as I hurried to build a small house. Small is putting it lightly as I can only move 2 blocks inside but it is keeping me safe from the skeletons outside.

That's where I left off and I'll play later today to continue my journey

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

I started playing minecraft pe survival mode

After only playing creative mode I switched to survival mode on 0.13 minecraft pe. Anyways I think I had bad luck because I spawned on a desert island with 3 other small islands close by within swimming distance. I made a small house by digging into a dirt wall but I have been unable to find carbon to craft torches.

I have died about 3 times because some skeletons have decided to bob in the water outside my house and they don't die in the sunlight because they are in the water. There are no trees at all within sight, just sand,dirt,grass,gravel,water and pigs,cows and chickens

I don't have wood to make a crafting table and my plan is to build a bridge and hope it leads to some trees or other types of terrain. I have played about 4 in game days and so far I haven't made much progress. Any advice would be appreciated

Monday, December 21, 2015

My favorite websites are all changing

I used to have a huge list of bookmarks of my favorite websites on my phone and they slowly stopped working on mobile and tablet for that matter. I think it's a weird curse I have where if I like a website then it will stop working on my phone.

It sounds like I'm kidding but really I'm not. It started with jalopnik switching to a flash layout so I couldn't access it on my older phone then grantland shut down. Bleacher report also changed to flash then motortrend and autoblog followed suit.

South texas diecast also erased all their pictures and changed the layout completely rendering all the hard work put into it, moot. hotwheels collectors.com also now has a flash site.

I'm not sure how I did it but the only safe haven I have is reddit and espn and wikipedia

Sheldon and amy finally had sex

In the newest episode of the big bang theory sheldon and amy finally do it. In case your wondering why it's such a big deal, sheldon is portrayed as having no interest at all in sex or human intimacy for that matter. This is why they made such a good couple because on their 1st blind date, coitus was off the table according to amy.

From that moment on who would have thought that both amy and sheldon would have evolved into actually having sex. Speaking of which, he only did it as a gift for her bday to show her how much she means to him. He originally planned for her to go sheer sheep.

It was a huge shock to me and to penny who dropped her cup and to the live audience and any dogs who happened to be watching. The moment itself was a typical tv sex scene in that it showed them kissing then they were in bed with the blankets up to their necks. Sheldon liked it and amy was extremely happy.

Oh there was also a side plot where the guys(howard,raj,leonard) see the newest star wars movie with wil wheaton but it seemed forced and like an afterthought compared to sheldon and amy. Now that everyone is paired up it seems like the show splits them up by gender.

How many scenes involve just the ladies or just the guys? it happens frequently, professor proton made an appearance as a jedi to give sheldon advice on if he should have sex with amy. I remember how robotic she used to sound in her first appearances on tbbt and now she had sex with sheldon. I certainly did not see that coming

This year has been a bust

The fact that I can vividly remember last year in dec that I had an interview at a local subway and didn't get a call back shows how little progess I made in life. I was supposed to get a job this year and make my blog headline true(I'll have to change that) which is more depressing because I made this blog in summer 2014.

How ironic that the 1st ever episode of the simpsons is on, the one where homer isn't getting his christmas bonus and bart gets a tattoo so marge is forced to use her saved money to get it removed. That however is different in that homer will still be ok, in real life, my dad is going to lose his job next month and I can't seem to get one.

Are you there god? it's me chris, I know life is supposed to be hard and unfair but I could use a little help my way. For example a job would be a good start then I'm not sure what else since most of my thoughts the past couple of years have been consumed by getting a job. It's why I stress so much and why I have lots of grey hairs at a young age.

I lost count of all the interviews I been to this year(I think it's 5) and the sad part is that some of(well of them so far) have been for nothing. I really don't know what to do besides apply at places since it seems like h.r. departments took this week off and I probably won't get any call backs until after jan 1st.

This entry is depressing but it's hard to enjoy the holidays when your life is going to ruins and there's nothing you could do about it


Saturday, December 19, 2015

Quick update on me

Im not sure why but I have a strong feeling that mom365 will call me on monday or tuesday so I'm hoping I get a call back. In the meantime I need to have a plan B so I searched Cl(which was a dud) then indeed. I saved 12 jobs and quickly applied at some. 1st up was black angus which sadly only lets you apply at one position in a location. Luckily I applied as host but I also wanted to apply as a server and busser.

Next up was marie callenders as a host and a tobacco shop as someone that takes and edit pictures of products for the website. No I didn't stop there, I applied at (what I presume is a job agency) a grocery store in the meat department in norwalk then I kept going and applied at a job agency in santa fe springs.

That's 5 places in about 30 mins and I only stopped to type this blog entry up, now I'll go back to indeed and finished up applying at more places. Instead of putting my head down I am productive and hope something good comes from this because this is the only thing I have to look forward to

I finally got around to posting my hot wheels finds

from earlier this week. I was going to do it earlier but fate lolled at me by having my 16gb sd card erase everything on itself then it would need a reformat before I could use it. Yes all my photos and videos were gone just like that.

Luckily I was able to download recuva which was about to recover about 90 to 95% of my files on the sd card. However and this is very important, do not use the card once you realize everything is gone other wise you mos likely will not get some pictures back.

So that just wasted my time but anyways, on tuesday at walmart I got this matchbox gator raider. Mattel made an airboat and sold it as a toy car which is why I got it. Yes it has wheels on the bottom but it's an airboat like the kinds you see in swamps. I could not pass it up. On wednesday at target I found the superman vs batman batmobile(yeah that's it official name) and an arkham knight batmobile.

That ended my dry spell at target and here are the pictures



Retro saturdays and titanic(the movie)

Yes the 1997 classic with jack and rose. I rented it from hollywood video (RIP) on vhs. It was so long it was on 2 cassettes and yes I got charged as 1 movie. The thing that surprised me the most like any other preteen boy was the surprise nudity. This was during a time that having a computer wasn't common and movies just had the rating without an information why unlike today(strong violence, brief nudity etc)

Oh it was still a touching film especially ending(where I presume that rose died and I hope that's what happens when you die) and of course the scene where the man in the lifeboat finds a mother frozen to death with her baby(that is incredibly sad even if it's not real).

When it came out in theaters it was "cool" to watch it multiple times so that's why it made so much $$$. If you want to make a grown man cry then put on my heart will go on by celion dion and the waterworks will flow, that also works on women,toddlers, dogs and goats.

Now I feel like watching it especially the tnt version that ends up being around 4 hours long, my mom was in the hospital when my sister was announced to her(I worded that wrong) meanwhile I was in the waiting room watching titanic on tbs from start to finish because my dad said she would be right out. Yes I waited that long and I only left because I picked up my brother from his friend's house.

My mom did call an hour later and said she would be staying overnight at the hospital, I was thinking of the things I could have done at home instead of being at the waiting room watching titanic. One last time, shortly after it was released it was cool to say I'm king of the world and anyone who was around then has attempted to forget those cringe worthy moments


Retro saturdays and wario land 2

Wario land 2 like it's title suggests, is the sequel to jurassic park ok I keed on that one. The follow up to wario land changed the game by getting rid of a time limit and being unable to die. So each level had obstacles that would only set you back.

I got the game used at a nerd store(called tronix) that only sold pc games and video games and pc parts and let you play pc games until the wee hours of the morning. Literally it was open from like 6pm to around 3-4am. It was used so I got it cheap and I remember this vividly that it would not save.

I assumed the game was supposed to be beaten in go because it had multiple branching paths, for example it is possible to go directly from the 1st level to the last boss. Imagine my frustration when I realized years later the game kept a file of your progress.

WL2 is a must play even if you don't know who wario is, it's cleverly layed out levels among with the tight gameplay and unique minigames means you can't put it down so easily. I know I couldn't when I owned it when I was little

I should mention that I owned the black gameboy color version and not the grey gameboy version


Friday, December 18, 2015

Retro fridays and super mario land 2

I remember getting sml2 at a toys r us that was close to a chuck e cheese. Yes that was a great day for little kid me because I opened sml2 in front of the chuck e cheese then played a few levels and went inside. I played the simpsons arcade game and beat it with 3 random kids.

Nothing brings you together like beating a game, I also played jurassic park the arcade game and xmen the arcade game(yeah it was common to have arcade in the name) and skeeball and shot some hoops. I don't remember much else but I do remember how great super mario land 2 was/is.

Anyways back to the game itself, it's pretty easy and it's similar to super mario world by nature of the overhead map. It also has unique themed levels like robot mario land, halloween land, space land. It's currently for sale on the nintendo 3ds market so I highly recommend you get it


Retro fridays and super mario rpg

Super mario rpg like it's name says, is an rpg mario game, the 1st one actually. It came out for the snes and my vivid memories of it are renting it at hollywood video and watching the intro video. The music gives me strong nostalgia that I want it to be 1996 again.

The game itself is really good and somewhat easily although it does have it's tough parts where you have to plan a strategy against a boss. The music and the graphics are the best part among with the random enemies(a floating carrot, donkey kong, frogs, a skeleton holding a jukebox etc). I wish there was a true sequel(paper mario doesn't count) but for now I have super mario rpg.

I think I'll play it again on my wii and pretend I rented it from hollywood video


Wednesday, December 16, 2015

My interview went ok

Why ok you ask? I think I because I blew it because I only asked one question and the interviewer asked me 3 times if I had any questions. But then again maybe it's just me thinking worst case scenario but that didn't help me on the way home where you I could have easily looked like I was just dumped by a girl.

So right now I could apply at places on CL and snagajob and indeed and cry myself to sleep because I can't get a job(that's a joke or is it?). I also will take pics later of my hot wheels finds the past 2 days and post an entry tomorrow. 

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Tomorrow is my actual interview

Unless it gets postponed again(which would be a let down but I'll still go to it) which would just be fate taunting me. I had a hard time studying potential questions today because of my mom. I know it seems like excuses but it's tough to concentrate when someone is blaming you for things that are wrong in their lives. For example *oh I woke up late and watched tv for hours and it's 1pm, I'll blame chris for this*

A very recent one is that my mom does not believe me when I say how much sugar a vitamin water has and gives it to my sister(whose 3) and then gets mad when she's hyper active. In case your wondering a vitamin water has 32 grams of sugar(a lot of the flavors have that exact amount), this is more then a rockstar or monster(seriously check it out at the supermarket) among with vitamin b6 and 12.

These are not things you want to give to a very little kid but my mom does it anyways(she can't read the label because she needs glasses) and just says I'm rude and very immature and a loser who should be getting a job because vitamin water is healthy for you according to her.

Anyways this is going to get worse simply because of her eyesight, I had a dream last night my mom and me were at stater bros and she got something that cost 6.99 but she said it cost 2.99(it didn't) and got mad at all the cashiers and managers and said they were lying.

I didn't mean to turn this into a rant about my mom but today she decided to make it about herself and get mad about everything and make things up to get mad about(such as me signing a card for my grandparents).

Tomorrow I'm going to get up very early to study and study the mom365 video(I also have a transcript of it) because I will be asked about it in the interview then hope I did my best at the interview since I really want this job.


Monday, December 14, 2015

My interview was rescheduled

Yep just like the title says, my interview that was supposed to be today ended up being moved to wednesday at the same time(3pm). This came after I had already combed my hair but luckily, before I got dressed or was at the hospital. So I have more time to watch the mom365 video again and again and more time to remember the information in the video.

Anyways is it me or did the past 2 months go by extremely fast(faster then a manager at walmart if you mention union). I half expect it to still be oct but nope it's almost christmas then  before you know it vday. Speaking of vday, I like to joke in stores in july/august that they already have their xmas stuff up but there already behind as I have already got rejected for vday.

No I didn't really since I'm not much into valentines day

Sunday, December 13, 2015

So it's been awhile since I posted

so I figure I get up to date on my life. I finished a long essay yesterday so I will have more free time and I can put more of an effort on retro fridays/saturdays. Yesterday morning I went to the whittier christmas parade in uptown whittier. Here are some pics below as the rest are on my camera's cf card. I was at 2 different spots to get good pics and I saw santa twice, he pointed at me the 1st time since i was really close to him.

I used to go to the parade a lot when I was little then stopped once I turned 12 but started up again when my sister was born. I have been going every year since she was born. I also saw straight outta compton yesterday which is alright. The guy that plays snoop dogg doesn't look anything like him although the 2pac actor looks a lot like him. The movie is right about how race relations used to be with the police in the early 90's and late 80's.

I saw vhs 2 and 3 today thanks to my friend lending them to me. Those are extremely meh no matter how much I tried to like them. Also they have a lot of surprise gore and violence. Tomorrow is my interview at a hospital for mom365 as a baby photographer. I watched a video that the recruiter suggested I watch since I will be asked questions about.

I'm also taking actual pictures(prints) of my sister that I took and developed when she was a few months old. Hopefully I nail this interview and then I'll have a happy christmas


Thursday, December 10, 2015

I suddenly got a call for an interview

I was headed to walmart with my dad and my sister this morning, when the phone rings and I answer it. It turned out to be a mini interview for the interview at mom365 as a photographer. I ended up doing well and now have an interview scheduled for monday at 3pm at the same hospital my sister was born.

I actually have photography experience and have been photographing my sister since she was born. Seriously I have documented her life through pictures so my mom doesn't have to. I also have sales experience and that was a plus according to the recruiter among with me knowing spanish. Also I was there when the mom 365 photographer took my sister's picture.

I do have some great prints(physical pictures) of her when she was months old so I'll build a portfolio around my sister(real one not an online one) and I hope to do well at this interview since I love the hours and pay and commission and work environment and dress code.

Just when things looked hopeless, bam here comes another interview. Oh and I didn't go to walmart since my dad left because the phone call took 20 mins

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

my minecraft town part 3

Here is my mansion. Yes it's just a square but it's huge.  You can find parts 1 and 2 if you search minecraft on my blog. I have a well and a waterfall and a moat to the sides and out back. Im going to post the inside of the mansion in in future posts since it's so big and it's 3 floors.